Crash & Burn

“What? Krista this is only your 5th blog post. How dare you say crash & burn? You haven’t even tried.”

I assure you that I’m not giving up. I’ve dug myself into a creative slump. I have ideas, topics, and even half-written drafts that I want to share with you all, but little motivation to accomplish them.

Out of everything I want to share, I’ve decided to talk to you about anxiety. I know… it’s a serious subject for a 5th blog post, but it’s an important one.

I have anxiety.

Now who saw that coming? Right… so I have safety anxiety, which was a term that a behavioral doctor used with me. I don’t know if it’s a thing or if she was just trying to help me label it. Basically, I’m always stressing over safety.

When I go out in public, I stress about knowing where all of the exits are in case of emergency. When a stranger walks too close to me for too long, I begin to panic over what their intentions are. At night, I have to talk myself off a ledge and convince myself that my house is not going to burn down and no one is trying to break in. We determined that there are events in my past that do cater to the why of my anxiety.

Someone told me once that it was all in my head. I laughed out loud and said “well you are not wrong.” While my doctor was going over grounding procedures, she reiterated this idea. It IS in your head. Your brain doesn’t know that these things are not happening as you are thinking & stressing about them. Your brain is sending signals to the rest of your body to alert them of the idea you are dwelling on. So your body feels on edge because your brain feels on edge.

She gave me tips to help ground myself when my thoughts start wandering off the paved path of normalcy. So why have I been a little behind on posting? My anxiety has been very high lately. I haven’t been sleeping very well and when I’m awake, my brain is working overtime.

I simply crashed and burned.

I started 2019 with all of these hopes & goals. And then our household dynamic shifted, which caused my anxiety to skyrocket. All I ask is that my new readers be patient while I work to pull myself together. I’ll be back very soon with home projects, recipes, gardening, fun posts, and more. I just need to work on me first.

Gift From The Sea

This book is a mystery to me – literally. My daughter plucked it from the bookcase and handed it to me. Gift From The Sea? Where did this book come from? I asked my husband and he wasn’t sure either. Oh well. I’m a strong believer in fate.

So I cracked it open. I always like to open a book in the middle and read a page before I decide if I’m going to read the whole thing. I was intrigued, so I determined that this book will be the first of hopefully many that I’d read in 2019.

What I didn’t know was that this book was exactly what I needed to read. From a vacation to the sea into the pages of this book, Anne Morrow Lindbergh provided thought provoking messages about relationships, marriage, finding peace in solitude, and balancing obligations we may carry on our shoulders.

In this non-fiction quick read, Anne takes us to the ocean. Each chapter is named for a shell she has found on her walk along the shore. These shells are symbols for different obligations that the author is currently pondering.

It was a humbling reminder that we, as women, shouldn’t lose ourselves in the role we are meant to play. Women have come such a long way, much further than when this book was published back in 1955. Yet we still struggle in the role of “the woman.” A role often portrayed as the ultimate home maker.

I would bet that this book caused a little uproar when it was first published. I found it to either be ahead of it’s time or possibly just still so relevant in the obstacles that women face daily.

I wholeheartedly recommend this book to any woman who is trying to find or re-discover herself in the throes of her marriage, motherly duties, or general life. It’s easy to lose ourselves in the daily hustle, but it’s imperative that we remember who we are.

Dreaming of Warmth

It has been snowing quite a bit in the last week. As someone who just spent 40 minutes shoveling the driveway, I can honestly say I’m ready for the days of rain that Spring tends to conjure up.

Our backyard after the first snow.

Don’t get me wrong. I do love how beautiful the snow is. I love crunching the ice below my boots, sledding, and snowball fights. I would just rather not have to clear my driveway in 8 degree weather. At least the sun was out.

The real terror comes when the roads are too dangerous to drive, so I find myself attempting to entertain my toddler for two days straight. I think she feels the same way because she’s actually letting my write this instead of trying to type with me.

What are some of your favorite activities with the tiny humans when you are snowed in?

We usually color, draw on a chalkboard, practice shape and color identification, snack on cookies, watch movies, play with CJ’s ever growing collection of cars & trucks, read books, snack some more, play trains, dance & sing, shoot hoops in the living room, work on problem solving activities (sliding pipe cleaners through strainers, etc), play trains, tidy up, work floor puzzles, watch the squirrels & birds outside, more snacking, more reading… We need some fresh ideas.

I’m tempted to let her paint, but I dread the mess. Plus, she’s usually more interested in organizing the paint supplies than painting. She’s definitely my kid. Maybe I could introduce her to Harry Potter… Is it too soon though? Maybe I’ll wait another year or so before I try to peak her interest in it.

So let me know, either here or in my instagram stories, what are your favorite indoor activities with the littles?

Flexing Creative Muscles

I’ve been working on finding myself. I’ve always been a creative person – and that’s not me tooting my own horn. I tend to decompress by flexing my creative muscles, which is something I haven’t been able to easily do since stepping into the mom life.

So I created this blog and joined an amazing group called the Dayton Creative Community. I attended an event the other night hosted by MamaInOveralls and got to meet a lot of fantastic women.

Dayton Creative Community

It was a cozy night of dinner, awesome swag, and networking. I’m very excited to see where this group goes and what milestones I’ve hit by the end of the year. One of our activities for the evening was to create or share our goals for 2019 – the only catch is that instead of a huge impossible list, we picked one word.

S/O to Silver Mountain Jewelry Co for contributing this beautiful jewelry as a prize!

Wellness

Everyone picked their own word and Wellness is the only word that really stuck to me. I want 2019 to focus overall on wellness. Spiritually, mentally, physically, financially, creatively…. you get it.

So I’m curious – do you have goals for the year? Have you boiled your list down to one word or are you checking them off line by line?

And We Begin

Thank you for checking out my blog!

My name is Krista and I am currently a stay at home mom. Blogging is something I have always wanted to do, so I’m hoping you’ll join me on this new adventure. Though I’ve lived in several places, I currently call Ohio home.

I have been married to my husband, S, for almost 10 years. He is a member of US Military, so we move quite often. We met in Florida (which is where I grew up), but his career has taken us to the beautiful Azores, the culturally rich Okinawa, and now the very artsy & lively Ohio.

We have a beautiful, wickedly smart and adventurous (almost) 2 year old. She keeps us on our toes. CJ is our winter-baby. She has only known Dayton, but we hope to continue travelling and showing her the world.

Our family is small, but to me it is full. We like to go on daily adventures. We love being outside, whether it is just going for a walk, gardening, or checking out a new park.

I’m hoping this blog will be a positive place for all of us to enjoy. You’ll see a lot of adventures and photos. I love to cook. I also LOVE to tidy up, so you may see some organization posts as well. I’m very passionate about photography. I’m also a bit of a bookworm. And I’m crazy about house projects – you’ll have a large variety of topics to pick through on this blog.

Oh, and of course you’ll get garden updates. I’d love to own a farm some day, but right now I just grow tomatoes (and other items) on my back porch.